Unbearable Pain: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden pain erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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